Monday, March 31, 2008

The Healing Power of Sleep

Have you ever just been completely unmotivated to finish something?
Well, my psychology scrapbook was due Today. I needed to summarizes 20 articles relating to psychology and put them in some kind of creative presentation. It is 15% of my final grade in psych.
I finished it this morning at 3am.
Showered and was asleep by 4am.
And the alarm clock went off at 4:50am.
Yuck. I mean, I didn't actually get up until 5:30 but still, yuck.
I didn't even go to work today. I told my boss and she said to go home and get some sleep. Which is exactly what I did.
Because what good am I as an English tutor if I fall asleep and drool on papers I am suppose to be helping with?

Monday, March 24, 2008

Who doesn't love socially relevant vandalism?

I have never been a big fan of graffiti.
I don't know about you but I don't think that "G-Unit wuz herrre" spray painted on a wall is a valid form of self expression. I mean, it's like a dog pissing on a tree to mark his territory. I would like to think that, as humans, we are a tad bit more evolved than that.
But that's not the point.
Despite my distain for graffiti, I really like Banksy. He's a British street artist and he has some really amazing work.
Here are a few of my favorites [click for full effect]:


Sunday, March 23, 2008

You don't know me!

A few little known facts about me:
  • I LOVE taking the little plastic screen protectors off of electronics.
  • I really want to smoke pot at Disney World.
  • On of my goals is to see every state...and to leave a dirty limerick in each one of those state's welcome center's sign in book.

Yeah. I am so lame.

Nerd.

x=9.219 cm

Wednesday, March 19, 2008

Circles

There are a lot of things that bother me (global warming, social injustices, Sarah Jessica Parker's face) but I absolutely can not fucking stand it when people uses the expression "360 degree turn". As in, "Oh, he stopped snorting coke off of that hooker's ass and went to priest school. Yeah, it was a real 360 degree turn for him."
You do not have to be a fucking geometry major to know that 360 degrees is a FUCKING CIRCLE!
If you did a 360, you would be right back where you fucking started!!!
Goddamnit.
That pisses me off so much.

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Spring Break

Yay! Oh thank you, Dear Sweet Jesus.
Spring Break is finally here.
As much as I love school [hahaha], I love not being in school even more.
Plans:
  • I am pretty sure I am going to Texas to see my sister but plans have not be finalized yet.
  • Making lots and lots of paper cranes.
  • Listening to the same song over and over and over again until I hate it...just because I do that sometimes
  • Working on my Psychology Scrapbook
  • Writing Anatomy notes so that I don't fall behind...gawd, I am such a loser

I'm sure is other stuff that I will be doing. I'll keep ya'll posted. :)

How the Masses Find Me

Okay. My favorite so far is "kill you so hard".

Play that Sad Song

Why do I listen to music that makes me want to cry?
Why do you do this to me, The Fray? "How To Save A Life" is so sad, yet irresistible.
"When You're Gone" is another one. Too bad I hate Avril and her faux punk attitude.

Saturday, March 08, 2008

I want. I hate. I need. I fear. I love.

I totally stole this from Karen (http://mammaren.wordpress.com/).

I want to have more free time so I can pursue frivolous creative interests that contribute nothing to my education other than to just keep me from having a major freak out.
I want to write and draw and paint without the little voice in the back of my mind telling me I should be doing homework.
I want to be more comfortable in my skin and not feel so awkward all the time.
I want to be proud of my intelligent and my GPA, rather than being ashamed of it.
I want to be able to say what's really on my mind without fear it will come back and bite me in the ass.
I want to change the world for the better.
I want to know and understand everything.
I want....

I hate feeling disconnected to God because I don't feel like I am worthy of unconditional love.
I hate being the center of attention.
I hate being afraid all the time.
I hate it when people look at me.
I hate Introduction to Psychology because most of it is pure bullshit.
I hate it that my mom feels so overwhelmed all the time and it seems like there is nothing I can do to help her.
I hate admitting that I can't help someone.
I hate….

I need more hours in the day.
I need a good night's sleep.
I need a cup of tea.
I need to get away from my textbooks this weekend but I can't because I won't be able to have any fun knowing that there is a stack of homework waiting for me on my desk.
I need to relax...but I can't.
I need to stop caring so much about the future.
I need to stop caring so much about what other people think because most of them are assholes anyway.
I need to organize my bedroom and clean my fishtank.
I need to stop neglecting my family and friends during the school semesters.
I need….

I fear almost eveything.
I fear I am losing my mind.
I fear that my life will be a waste.
I fear….

I love reading poetry while curled up in my bed.
I love writing beautiful stories.
I love connecting with people and touching their lives somehow.
I love my family.
I love my job and the people I work with.
I love how it feels when I get off the treadmill smiling even though I am breathless and covered in sweat.
I love how I look when I actually make an effect to look good.
I love….

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

"I can feel you all around me"

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe
I love Flyleaf.
But I hate the anatomy lab.
What am I talking about?
I don't know anymore.
I seriously think I am going crazy.