I'm not assertive. It just isn't who I am. I don't tell guys how I really feel about them. So for me to go out on a limb and tell someone that I do have feelings for them is rare. In fact, this was pretty much the first time it happened.
And you know what? Rejection fucking sucks.
Even when the guy is super sweet about it.
If fact, it is almost worse than if he would have been a complete dick. Because at least then I could say, "This guy totally sucks. Whew. Dodged a bullet there."
But no, he had to be fucking nice and a perfect gentleman.
On the bright side, at least now I know that I have good taste.