It hits me out of no where. All of a sudden, this overwhelming sadness rushes over me.
And I get discouraged and I get upset and I feel hopeless and sad and hurt.
It lasts for hours and days. It makes me question everything I claimed to know and believe. It makes me question everything I thought I wanted.
And then again, just as suddenly, I feel numb again.
Things are not pretty here, my beloveds.