Monday, November 15, 2010

So, I have been doing a lot of thinking lately [which can be a pretty scary thing] and I am not so sure that I am happy with all that I have come to realize.
It is time to start trimming the bullshit out of my life.
The drama.
The toxic friends [and family members].

I just hope it isn't too late.

Tuesday, November 09, 2010

Drug Me Up

hello beloveds.
I just wanted to give ya'll a quick up date on how I have been doing now that I have been on Wellbutrin (bupropion 300mg xl) for a full week. I already notice the difference in my mood. I seem to be a little more level. I am not nearly as panicy as I was before (even though Wellbutrin isn't considered a medication used to treat panic disorder). Considering everyone I have talked to has said that it takes about 2 weeks for it to take full effect, I consider this to be a very good sign and am looking forward to seeing if things get any better.
There is one side effect that I have noticed though.
I have no appetite. At all.
Oh yeah, I'll be hungry. But I will put off eating so long that my body finally says "hey! What the fuck?!? Go get a damn sandwich or something!" And when I do eat, I probably won't finish it. I mean, who doesn't finish one pack of ramen?!
I just have no desire for food.
Which, being a fat chick, is very new to me.
Not that I am complaining about this or anything. I am already down like 5 pounds (in a week....which probably isn't healthy).
xoxox,
Estelle

Monday, November 08, 2010

Photopia - The nursing school edition

So if you are friends with me on Facebook, you have probably seen all these photos before.
But if probably won't kill you to see them again.

Image from our Medical-Surgical Nursing textbook.

Image from the Maternal-Child Nursing textbook.

A photo of my desk in the middle of an intense study session.

Tuesday, November 02, 2010

Cope

Thank God for good music, good friends, and chocolate.
Whiskey too.


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What, what? She's back?

hello my beloveds.
I know what you are all thinking.
"Holy Geez! Estelle, my favorite blogger, where have you been?!?! You know our lives are empty without you filling our Google Reader page with amusing and hilarious anecdotes about nursing school, your dysfunctional family, and drunken hookups."

So sorry to have disappointed you, my darlings. Life has been a tiny bit *stressful* lately.

The one good thing I can say about going through all this stress, and depression, and anxiety is that you find out who your real friends are. The people who only love you when you are your normal bright and happy self very quickly fall away. And yes, it hurts. It hurts to realize that someone you love and trusted cannot handle it whenever you have a few bad days.
So, in trying to be thankful for the difficult times in my life, I am grateful that this has shown me who is in my life because they truly care for me.
And I just got a prescription for Wellbutrin. So I'll be okay.

xoxox
Estelle

Frisky Friday - Meanwhile, in Japan....

Okay, okay, okay.
I know it isn't Friday. It's Tuesday (I think?).
But honestly, I couldn't wait the 4 days to be able to post this.