Well, I received my ATT (Authorization to Test) from Pearson VUE yesterday evening so I went ahead and scheduled my exam.
I am taking the NCLEX-RN on Wednesday, June 22 at 8am.
I had the option of taking it this Monday (the 6th) but I don't think I will be ready. I need more time to do practice questions....even if I don't actually 'learn' anything new, they will help to elevate some the anxiety I am feeling over this.
Oh and am I feeling the anxiety.
After I received the confirmation email for my appointment, I couldn't stop shaking. All I kept thinking was that every single one of the graduates from my program passed the NCLEX on their first try. Granted, it is a newer program (I think I am in the 4th or 5th class to graduate) but the fact still remains that none of them have had to take the exam a second time. It is just a * tiny* bit of pressure. And no one wants to be the one to break the school streak.
After scheduling, I sent the boyfriend a text message.
"So in two years when you are freaking out over NCLEX and I am telling you that you'll be fine and that you have nothing to worry about, remind me of this moment...where I am sitting in my bedroom shaking because I am so nervous so that I can be more sympathetic"
I am sure he will be more than happy to remind me of this when I am trying to reassure him when he graduates. Ugh.
[Yeah. And I know what you are thinking. "Estelle, why in the world are you dating a nursing student?! Don't you know they are all insane and don't have any spare time and are stressed to the nth degree?!" Yes, dear reader, I am aware of all this.]
Wish me luck, darlings. Because I will be spending the next 18 days cramming and practicing.
[Oh and I also didn't sleep a wink tonight and a close friend is insisting on spending the day together before I disappear into a library. Ugh. It is going to be a long day.]